Saturday, January 24
Two sessions this a.m., first metta via directional pervasion, then a session of sweeping. Decent samadhi, quite pleasant & tingly.
Last night, the mind again fell into the abyss, fires of loathing raged out of control. Still there was an awareness and remembrance that all these afflictive thoughts and feelings were conditioned by excessive fatigue and pain. That mindfulness is what saves me, time and again. All these sankharas advance and recede. Waves. Even the most painful ones do recede.